Mr.Sandman

Mr. Sandman
bring me a dream
make it the cutest
that I've ever seen
well not for me

3 sleeping pills further
and I am still wide awake
stuff bothering me today
didn't really had the time
to get it of my chest

keeps running around
not letting my brain rest
even a minute
got involved in such
a situation
but love is blind

and I am, I admit
she stole my heart
the moment I looked
in those amazing eyes

I don't know if Mr. Sandman
has been here yet
but the man in brain
is making overtime
and ignoring his visitor

guess this is going to be
another restless night
hopes Mr. Sandman knows
how to find me on his way
back to where ever he goes
and tries again

Mr. Sandman
bring me a dream
make it the cutest
that I've ever seen
Mr.Sandman
bring me a dream

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Without me

Cried my eyes out
last night
homesick to my baby

even staring at the stars
and wishing on the moon
isn't helping no more

her birthday
is coming up
it will go by
without me

without me being able
to pamper her
without me surprising her
at work
without me kissing her
on her birthday

I feel sad,
my heart is crying
my eyes are filled
with tears

I feel so helpless
all I want to do
is love her as she
deserves

crying my eyes
out tonight
homesick to my baby

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Pictures

Pictures are
the reminders
of a time gone by

they hold people
close and alive
for years all caught
in a moment

I love pictures
I love to make them
from all kind of things
so I can dream back
and walk memory lane

a good picture
doesn't need a comment
like the greyscaled ones
I made in Minnesota

one of the city
the buildings are high
and grey and impersonal

just an hour drive
and a road to nowhere
green fields and
one lost farm

memory lane
pictures the reminder
of a time gone by

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Don't feel

When it hurts
so bad that
you don't feel
the pain anymore

when you cried
so much that
through the tears
you can't see tears
anymore

when you screamed
so loud that
by the noise
you can't hear the
scream anymore

when it hurts
so bad that
you don't feel
the pain anymore

© AngelZpublishing 2005

a way to wake up

My body responds
and reaches out
for what is waking
me out of my very
deep sleep

my mind is trying
to wrap itself around
the sound that is
disturbing me
in this dark night

as I open one eye
which catches light
and closes itself in
an instant
I try to find
the clock
on the wall

One pm!!
while my germ sick
body responds on
that fact
my raspy morning
voice answers
the sweet angel voice
on the other side of the line

"goodmorning gorgeous"
oh baby I really don't feel
gorgeous today,
my nose looks like Rudolph
my voice sounds like
2 bottles of jack and 2 packs
of cigarettes
and my body is very aware
of every muscle in my body

"your still gorgeous" my angel says
to me that's true love
she sees me gorgeous
even I know I look Like
I've been run over by a truck
4 times

a good way to wake up.

© AngelZpublishing 2005

walking my own shadow

What do you do
when home isn't home anymore
it's my home
but I don't feel at home

it's the same house
with the same stuff
but I don't feel
the same thing

the love is gone
my heart is in another place
it's with my baby
and she isn't here

I will be home with her
but I can't be Yet
It tears me apart
when our ways
separated at the airport
cuz you were going home

I was suppose to go home too
to a home where I don't feel at home
to a country where I don't want to be
to a city where no one is waiting for me
and a house where nobody cared

Now I am here
but I am not home
lots of people had said
you have an American soul
I guess they were right

I feel home there
my soul is at ease there
my heart is at peace there
my face smiles there
and my eyes twinkle there

here I walk my own shadow
what do you do
when home isn't home anymore?

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Fever dreams

My mind wanders off
into colors and windows
smiling faces
gorgeous eyes

an Angels face
hands so soft
lips kissing my forehead
reaching out

my fever is breakin
waking in sweat
my angel is all I can
think of

my heart feels incomplete
my fever mind
takes me to where
I really want to be

warm sweaty
skin touching cold ground
brings my mind back
to reality
phone rings
my Angel

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Delusions

The silence
around and in the
house is hurting
killing me

after 3 weeks
of constant noise
talking people
and screaming
kids, disneytunes

my ears hurt
by the sound of
nothing
the flu is banging
my poor head

and fever makes
me see things
that ain't even there
or here

the cold western
sea wind
got to me
and brought me
some Dutch germs

I'll stay safe
in the loneliness
of my own
cuddly but empty
bed

and miss my loved one
even more then before

© AngelZpublishing 2005

I smile

After long
warm, soft,
and cuddly
mornings

I am back
to my own
soft, and cuddly
but cold and
empty bed

waking up
and see the
most amazing
blue eyes
staring at you
watching you awake

I woke up smiling
every morning
not skipped a day
I felt her
soft, sexy tiny hands
on my skin

and it made my
body shiver of pleasure

I woke up this morning
and reached out
to feel her warm
sensual body
and her amazing
caramel colored
silk soft skin

but I reached
an empty spot
got me back
to reality

I close my eyes
and she is with me
Can almost feel
her soft, sexy tiny hands
on my wanting body

I smile

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Liar, Liar

it's amazing
how people
can think
you are stupid

they act friendly
in your face
and ask you
to trust them
that's when
my first alarm bells
go off

I don't trust
people who tell
me that I can
trust them

caught someone
on a lie
and the person
doesn't know
that I know
ya know

she asked me
to please trust her
but I can't
not aslong
as she holds on
and deny

so I ask her
and she denies
to me, that's a lie
cuz I know the
truth

stay in denial
liar liar

© AngelZpublishing 2006