My time...........

Staring at the screen
hearing the clock
tick away it's seconds
minutes and hours

lay on my back
in complete darkness
hearing the clock
tick away it's seconds
minutes and hours

staring at the ceiling
see the light of the sun coming up
hearing the clock
tick away it's seconds
minutes and hours

Another night is gone
again lost of lost hours
of sleep which I will never
get back, or catch up on
hearing the clock
tick away MY seconds
minutes and hours

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Flying Solo

Had a lonely day
a lonely evening
and lookin at
a lonely night

I love to be alone
don't get me wrong
but at times
I get lonely

then I have a lonely day
a lonely evening
and lookin at
a lonely night

Loose myself in
some favorite shows
watch a movie
then some discovery
before bed some
animal planet

check tammy's blog
and website
ofcourse melissa's board
and news
then emails
and the room

then back to being
lonely
not everyday
but alot of days
lonely day
lonely evening
and looking at alonely night

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Paper Rollercoaster

The article is written
the words are there
waiting on bright
white paper
waiting to be read

words that tell our story
of how it is, and it has been
full of emotions
the rollercoaster
is riding on paper now

thousands of girls and women
are going to read our story
they going to feel our
rollercoaster
now the waiting
has start

waiting for reviews
for responses
waiting for other stories
of people in the ride
with us

I am excited
my girl is so proud
waiting for the presses
to start pressing
our love will be out there
everybody will know

the article is written
the words are there
waiting on bright
white paper
waiting to be read

© AngelZpublishing 2005

I am I am

I am so in love
with you
I am I am

I am I am
so in love
with you
I am I am

I am in love with
your smile
I am I am

I am in love with
your touch
I am I am

I am in love with
your scent
I am I am

I am in love with
your being
I am I am

I am so much
in love with you
I am I am

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Mind clouds

(I wrote this waking up out of a dream)

Time is passing fast
I see my life
flashing by on the
inside of my eyes

thinking about
what I have been
just if........

No regrets
just doubts
life is good
right now
not perfect tho

I watch the clock
breath, one deep breath
and some time gone by

things change
people change fast
I feel solid
at the base
with my love

situations change
constant
don't know what
to come, or to
expect

dreaming
I keep dreaming
and time passed by
so fricken fast

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Among friends

My eyes
search the room
for some
familiar faces
I am among friends

I find some
but miss some too
my eyes are
sparkling

even tho
I am without
my sweetheart

I can still feel her
with me,
even tho my hand
is empty

I feel her little
fingers tangled up
with mine

I feel welcome here
friends are greeting
hugging and kissing

the kindness
is almost
touchable in this
room

we don't see
eachother much
or even talk
a lot

but always
when we meet
I can feel the warmth
the kindness

almost the trust
and the band
I feel like

I am among friends

rollercoaster ride

I want to scream
but no sound is
coming from my
mouth

feel like I am back
in the rollercoaster
emotional I flip,
spin, turn, and
start over again

repressing my
happiness with
uncertainty
don't want to
be disappointed

brings me stress
my body is tired
my head is pounding
my eyes are burning

spin, flip, twist
and start all over again
feel like I am on the top
of that rollercoaster
ready to fall into
the deep

and everything in
my body is resisting
the release
holding my breath

still holding
and waiting for
the release
on the highest
point of the
rollercoaster of life

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Scary world

It's a scary world out there
Changing channels
all I see is

rape, kidnapping
murder, missing kids,
war, terror,
animal cruelty

where is the love?
people are only
talking about
what is wrong with
this world

why is nobody
talking about the
good things?
about spring coming?

about love?
about how good
and sweet people
can be?

all I hear is
about killing each other
hurt and pain
and terrorists

where is the world
going to
if nobody loves
another anymore?

is this what we want?
killing each other over
faith, religion,
color of your skin,
if your a skater, or a gothic

if your black or white
Latin or Mexican?
why don't we just love
it's so much easier
then hating and way
less time consuming

it's a scary world out there

© AngelZpublishing 2005