Wednesday at work, yesterday i went through a little personal hell, i got my nail extracted from my toe, without anesthetic OMG! talking about pain!!!! so i got my foot up today, at work got picked up by my boss from home, very spoiled!
last couple of months not much happend it's same old same old, war, love, seperation from the one I love, work. I thought my life would look different by now.
its time to reflect my life i guess, now i've turned 40 (no it didn't hurt, but stings) for some reason, you see things in a different setting.
I never really set a goal for myself, and now i feel im missing a goal, although i have one big one that all my focus goes to. (getting home to USA)
The Missing, is worse, more painful more sad and more consuming... feels like everyone is soaked with my misery, so u get no feedback any more except, "you will get there no worries"very understandable, but not helping. Sometimes you just want to scream!!! and you want some decent feedback and answers! but im babbling again, and staring off to lala land its time to get back to work, im in a writing mood today so probably more later.....
