Love, love, love....:-)

Yes....it's true.
Cupid aimed and hit target
I opened my heart and now
i am stupid in love...
I become happy just looking at her.
Gorgeous eyes, a smile to die for, and oh my lord she is funny!!
I can look at her,  sqeezing her eyes when she laughs so hard, it makes me smile instantly.
Stare at her hands while she touches mine. Dream stupidly and drift off in thoughts of her.
Instant happiness...the sun came out and it's warming my heart.
The storm seem to be over and spring is bringing love,  love and love.
This is happy me, hoping for an even brighter summer!!

Be love.

Surprise

Thinking...of her, her eyes
Walking in a haze
Turning around and looking in the smiling
Face that u love
Disbelieve and joy
Happiness and prove of love
Unexpected her arms around me
Her warm lips on mine
Surprise.....
You are awesome!

X

Open hand...brand new

There she is....crashed right in!
Long time that i felt this way.
New eyes....lovely gorgeous eyes.
Heart bounches, mind is warning..
Hands are willing,smiles are feeding.
Like a rushing river....fresh, new and still so familiar....like it's always been.
Still brand new, exciting and new...burning to a newer level

GXC@2014

Sad

I am sad today
Two days before my birthday
No one special to celebrate it with
I never felt more alone than right now
Sadness fills my heart
My heart that has so much love to give
Seems no one wants it
No place to return it
Trade it for another one
Complete it
Repare or share it
I guess i am stuck with it
My sad and unloveable empty lonely heart....

What?

Sometimes
Sometimes it all makes sense
Often it doesn't
Matters of the heart
So simple, so complicated at the same time
Clear one day, confusing the next
What is it
Why is listening to your heart so deafning
Why does your head overrules that voice
What does it say to some
That make them not listen
To the voice of their heart.....
What?

let the sunshine in.........

Wow, it's been a while, lots of changes
life...goes on...with or without......it's been crazy...
heartbreaks, loves, sorrow, sadness, happiness daily life i guess
what a ride....now I'm trying to get my feet back on solid ground
it's harder than I thought.........but it's worth fighting and working for.

I'm trying to find the love inside me.....not in others any more
that has changed, I am meditating my self to sleep at night
to not feel the pain and loneliness anymore,
the loneliness had a tight grip on my heart....it's slowly
loosening up....to sometimes squeeze a little tighter.

I hope spring, warmth and sunshine will help me warm my heart again
to love and laugh and enjoy again...
im trying hard to escape the darkness that I feel now...

let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in....a tantrum in my head
let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in.....you're stronger than this
keep your head up! keep your head up!
it's so hard when you feel life is crumbling down on top of you
love, life, work....

breath......again I need the mountains....where are you when I need you most?
I know where to find you, if only I could get to you........

I travel in my head, stand there, on top in the Rockies.....
total happiness
and my heart opens...........and enlightens.

let the sunshine in...................

A new rollercoaster.........

Wow, what's happening with me
so much going on in my life, feelings,
loneliness, darkness....winterdepression?
can I pass?
I'm somewhat confused, health issues
 nothing majore but some stuff is holding me back
from working out hard....that doesn't help me

I need the endorphine and adrenaline
not working out makes me lazy and tired
crabby and crying.
I'm strong and beautiful
I love life........ugh...I'm trying
can't blame a girl for trying!

me a girl with an opinion and more friends
in foreign countries than i have closer to home
which is weird, don't you think?
I'm a marshmallow by heart
some things hit me hard, friendship, animal suffering
some things i couldn't care less, people who get hurt
by their own stupidity i couldn't care less

Matters of the heart............
unspoken things...........they hit me hard
and hunt me...........when things can't be resolved
or are not said, that gets under my skin,
and burn......

Be good, Be love.....

inspirational

New people, meet the old ones again
better friendships, more intense but loving
im careful, I don't trust easily
but trust my soul to reconize another good one

new music
inspirational, new body
thats how it feels anyway
worked hard
I rather die fast than ever lived slow....
wow........
it's alright............

I feel sorry.............for them...........

where to start, changes in life
im still waiting
loneliness is trying to get to me
opening my heart for the good ones
trying to trust, get stabbed
promises never held
broken, bruised, lied to and used....

heartbreak, tears and questions
words never spoken
hanging in my head and in my heart
silent, killing, wondering and wandering
worked hard to become the change,

for some you never do....
they hold on to the past
and keep their mind in the wrong place
pulling others with, but they don't know
the truth, the feelings, the love, the struggle,
sorry for them, they stay narrow minded
i pitty them for not growing
for not seeing the truth out there
for not seeing the real person

for missing out on a real heart
for the truth
I pitty them

it's fall....

It's fall,
not just outside,
it feels like fall in my heart,
heavy tears keep falling
just when your life can't be any better
the univers hits you with something
something hard, and brings you back
back to reality back to being humble


Fall............tears..........
feel unwelcome, unwanted, lonely, stabbed,
left alone and lost

Overrated

You know how sometimes,
stuff can feel so overrated?
like work? we work to live don't
live to work.........
health.......so NOT overrated
Love.........so NOT overrated
but sometimes made so not important by others

like a boss who wants to know what you are
doing at the doctors office....does it matter to you?
it's none of your bussiness but still..........
I don't know, i had some struggles the last
two weeks with health problems
nothing majore but really inconveniënt and painful

even got in a fight at work to defend my own health
really? how can anyone even judge how you are feeling
and why you decide to go home or not go home?
is it really up to any one else than yourself?

I'm one of the "little people" meaning i work for a boss
that breaths down my neck at times
I don't care, not anymore anyway.
I am good at what I do, and she needs me
so i couldn't care less if she yells at me
I yell back without fear

that is appreciated and excuses are made
many times this week
 it happens, we're all human
with emotions, health and love
with issues and little aches and pains

it is what it is...
don't overrate care, love, health or happiness!!

be good, be love

Natural palet of colors.............

Clouds and rain.........we're going back to fall
it can be beautiful colorfull and loving
rough rainy windy and tough
live feels like fall

leaves are falling to never come back
but make space for new
in a while,
work through it,
breath........enjoy the beauty, the peeking sun
enjoy the rain, don't just get wet
be amazed by the beauty, colorfull
a palet that can only be painted by mother nature

I'm waiting for peaceful winter or loving summer again

I got

I got sunshine....:-)

Friends...........

Lol friends..........they tell you when to jump of a cliff and expect you to do it also......
in blind trust..........some do, some don't............one of my best friends told me....
G... the picture on your blog.....it's just not you any more............your hair has grown....
your face is different now you lost 70 lbs.....you need to change it...........so.....I did.....
not sure if I'm happy with this picture...it's small feel like you can hardly see me at all....
but...it's me lol.......happy in sunlight with my ever lasting glasses on........(she will probably comment about that) I can hear her NJ accent in my head......hmmmppfff you Ass I still can't see your eyes!!
But I know she'll be happy that my dimples show lol......(am I right buttface?)
My baby....loves to look into my eyes.....without sharing........so for her.....this picture is perfect lol
Let's see what the comments are going to be...........once my overseas friends wake up.....

Be good, Be love....

Summerhead

Summerhead,
I know I am someone who loves love
loves to take in the summersun
feel it caressing my skin,
she makes me happy,
feel loved,
special and warm

Love,
between people
adults,
kids,
pet and owner,
friends,
I never stay silent
"my" people know
every single one
know how much they mean to me
No matter how short we know each other
how intense a click can be,

my love is out there
People know,
I tell,
I share,
I feel,
I love,
Love with all my heart
every single person
every single time
one more than another
never less than yesterday
tomorrow always more than today

share your love
and tell,
be a good friend, a lover, a wife
care, and love..........

Love............

Be good, Be love.........

Wanna

Wanna
touch,
feel,
smell,
kiss
be,
in love,
and I love you

Be good, Be Love........

lost............

one of little songs that can actually make me cry..........

Anouk - Lost

If roses are meant to be red
And violets to be blue
Why isn’t my heart
Meant for you
My hands longing to touch you
I can barely breathe
Starry eyes that make me melt,
Right in front of me

Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I’ll be found

His music is irresistible
Your voice makes my skin crawl
Innocent and pure
Guess you heard it all before
Mr. inaccessible 
Will this ever change
One thing that remains the same
You’re still a picture in a frame


Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I’ll be found
I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
That’s where I’ll be found
Yeah yeah

Lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
Am I the only one
Whoa………

(c) Anouk

Love me more..........

Friends, love, cry, hate, kick, hug
sometimes something not as good turns into something good.
A lost friend returns to you, and the friendship is more real than it ever was...
A hurt love...loves you more than ever before...........the sun is finally coming out from the clouds
my smile is brighter and bigger I feel more loved than I did before...
and it brings friends............good people to gather around me...........
And love.........love..........oh amazing warm loving love............

Universe

My universe is different

I feel different,

I look different,

I am approached different

and I approach different

more energy, going

on going and going

talking working, working out

and it's working

people are picking up on it

taking my energy

and giving it back

harder, more, larger and more intense

my luck has changed,

I can feel it.

I smile to the universe

and smile some more.....

it's working

it's finally working

feeling great,

loving,

loved,

energized

giving

giving

giving....more.....

Be good be love

It will be me.......

If you hear a voice in the middle of the night
Sayin’ it’ll be alright
It will be me

If you feel a hand guiding you along
When the path seems wrong
It will be me

There is no mountain that I can’t climb
For you I’d swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me

If there is a key that goes to your heart
A special part
It will be me

If you need a friend
Call out to the wind
To hold you again
It will be me

Oh how the world seems so unfair
Creating a love that can not be shared
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me

Past the ever after there’s a place for two
In your tears of laughter
I’ll be there for you

In the sun and the moon
In the land and the sea
Look all around you
It will be me

There is no mountain that I can’t climb
For you I’d swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me
It will be me
It will be me...

Melissa Etheridge