family life, thats life!

Thankful and loving, 
coming "home"be greeted, kissed and hugged 
For so many normal and the way it is.
I see the beauty when kids stand in front of the window
with both hands high up in the air to great and wave.
they jump into your arms when you walk in the door.

It makes me smile....inside...in my heart
like a little leap of joy
my heart jumps.

I am lucky to be loved like that
loving eyes, kissing lips, warm greeting arms

lucky and greatful... looking forward 
to come home again tonight


:-)

Every time!

Every time!!
In a pic or in real life
Her squeezing eyes they make me fall all over!
I can't help it
Sounds corky and corny...
But those make me smile deep in my soul
And fall in love with her all over again.
I don't think she understands. ..
Maybe better :-D
I look at het pic and there it happens again....I love her!
With pride  and joy. ..I love her!
There it is...I said it...
Every time!

So this is Christmas

We're getting there...
Pulled up the tree
Full loving family time
Dark outside
Happiness love and joy
Real Christmas. ..no traveling
No wondering...just plain and simple
Happy, love and joy....perfect!

Have a wonderful happy healthy and joy full christmas! Where ever you lay your head!!

Fall.... in love

the leaves, the love,

smiles, kisses, love and hugs

eyes more intense than ever

looking at me, a smile that tells it all

Happy heart, jumping of joy

no questions except from little voices

wondering when...

our lives already started together 

for now apart together

were taking time

happiness is overruling

friends and love

joy and love

love and love

fall in love

love in fall

Sometimes.........

I know...

just sometimes I wish she could..
she did write it down, 
and a written word, they say, is everlasting,
sometimes I just wish she could...
she does,
I can see it in her eyes
and she can read it in mine
I say it, she doesn't
someday she will
I just know it
I have to or I will burst..
she will burst some day....:-)

Filled with happiness

Busy loving weekend
Involved in her life
Like it's never been different
Flowing loving caring going

Happiness on her face
Loving eyes
Caring hands
Kissing lips

Filled with happiness,

Perfect....

Fearless!

Fearless!
She is! Amazingly brave
She made a choice is determent
And showing it.
Who ever she cares for, she is sharing 
Our happines,our love!
Her smile confirmes
Her eyes show
love...it's real
Never been more proud!

The big step

Brave and filled with love
For them,nothing changed
We wrestled on the beach
And I got showered with kisses
I just love her...like they do..in a different fashion, but love is love.
And it's good! It's real and true.
My heart jumped with joy
My heart is happy, so is hers...i can see it in her amazing eyes.
Happy hearts and love...
Nothing else counts.

Am I the only one?

Am I?
the only one that wants
a  normal, healthy relationship
shared and admired?

loved and resepected
and treathed with dignity.
with the airtime that  love deserves?

why is this so scary to people?
is it a lifetime commitment?
only when you both want it!

why not live laugh and love
NOW!!
it's here! now! staring at you!

if we live later, then what happens today?
if we laugh later, you didn't understand the joke!
If we would love later, its a day late..........

Grab it, hold it, (gently, with open hand)
enjoy it, cherish and share it......

Am I the only one?

Sometimes....

Sometimes i am just so lost..
I feel like i don't understand love
The pulling and the pushing
Just love,  why is it so hard at times
And why is it so easy many times?
Why is one week different from another?
Love is love!
Always there!
Right in your face!
Staring at you....
Just miss me like I miss you....
Sometimes i am so lost...

Light and bright

My heart lightens up when I see her smile
Her dreamy eyes make me uncomfortable happy
Her kisses lift me up
She turned the sun on in my chest and she made love feel like summer!
And butterflies are playing wild and silly!!
Wonderful loving warm lazy long amazing summer :-)

Love, love, love....:-)

Yes....it's true.
Cupid aimed and hit target
I opened my heart and now
i am stupid in love...
I become happy just looking at her.
Gorgeous eyes, a smile to die for, and oh my lord she is funny!!
I can look at her,  sqeezing her eyes when she laughs so hard, it makes me smile instantly.
Stare at her hands while she touches mine. Dream stupidly and drift off in thoughts of her.
Instant happiness...the sun came out and it's warming my heart.
The storm seem to be over and spring is bringing love,  love and love.
This is happy me, hoping for an even brighter summer!!

Be love.

Surprise

Thinking...of her, her eyes
Walking in a haze
Turning around and looking in the smiling
Face that u love
Disbelieve and joy
Happiness and prove of love
Unexpected her arms around me
Her warm lips on mine
Surprise.....
You are awesome!

X

Open hand...brand new

There she is....crashed right in!
Long time that i felt this way.
New eyes....lovely gorgeous eyes.
Heart bounches, mind is warning..
Hands are willing,smiles are feeding.
Like a rushing river....fresh, new and still so familiar....like it's always been.
Still brand new, exciting and new...burning to a newer level

GXC@2014

Sad

I am sad today
Two days before my birthday
No one special to celebrate it with
I never felt more alone than right now
Sadness fills my heart
My heart that has so much love to give
Seems no one wants it
No place to return it
Trade it for another one
Complete it
Repare or share it
I guess i am stuck with it
My sad and unloveable empty lonely heart....

What?

Sometimes
Sometimes it all makes sense
Often it doesn't
Matters of the heart
So simple, so complicated at the same time
Clear one day, confusing the next
What is it
Why is listening to your heart so deafning
Why does your head overrules that voice
What does it say to some
That make them not listen
To the voice of their heart.....
What?

let the sunshine in.........

Wow, it's been a while, lots of changes
life...goes on...with or without......it's been crazy...
heartbreaks, loves, sorrow, sadness, happiness daily life i guess
what a ride....now I'm trying to get my feet back on solid ground
it's harder than I thought.........but it's worth fighting and working for.

I'm trying to find the love inside me.....not in others any more
that has changed, I am meditating my self to sleep at night
to not feel the pain and loneliness anymore,
the loneliness had a tight grip on my heart....it's slowly
loosening up....to sometimes squeeze a little tighter.

I hope spring, warmth and sunshine will help me warm my heart again
to love and laugh and enjoy again...
im trying hard to escape the darkness that I feel now...

let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in....a tantrum in my head
let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in.....you're stronger than this
keep your head up! keep your head up!
it's so hard when you feel life is crumbling down on top of you
love, life, work....

breath......again I need the mountains....where are you when I need you most?
I know where to find you, if only I could get to you........

I travel in my head, stand there, on top in the Rockies.....
total happiness
and my heart opens...........and enlightens.

let the sunshine in...................

A new rollercoaster.........

Wow, what's happening with me
so much going on in my life, feelings,
loneliness, darkness....winterdepression?
can I pass?
I'm somewhat confused, health issues
 nothing majore but some stuff is holding me back
from working out hard....that doesn't help me

I need the endorphine and adrenaline
not working out makes me lazy and tired
crabby and crying.
I'm strong and beautiful
I love life........ugh...I'm trying
can't blame a girl for trying!

me a girl with an opinion and more friends
in foreign countries than i have closer to home
which is weird, don't you think?
I'm a marshmallow by heart
some things hit me hard, friendship, animal suffering
some things i couldn't care less, people who get hurt
by their own stupidity i couldn't care less

Matters of the heart............
unspoken things...........they hit me hard
and hunt me...........when things can't be resolved
or are not said, that gets under my skin,
and burn......

Be good, Be love.....

inspirational

New people, meet the old ones again
better friendships, more intense but loving
im careful, I don't trust easily
but trust my soul to reconize another good one

new music
inspirational, new body
thats how it feels anyway
worked hard
I rather die fast than ever lived slow....
wow........
it's alright............

I feel sorry.............for them...........

where to start, changes in life
im still waiting
loneliness is trying to get to me
opening my heart for the good ones
trying to trust, get stabbed
promises never held
broken, bruised, lied to and used....

heartbreak, tears and questions
words never spoken
hanging in my head and in my heart
silent, killing, wondering and wandering
worked hard to become the change,

for some you never do....
they hold on to the past
and keep their mind in the wrong place
pulling others with, but they don't know
the truth, the feelings, the love, the struggle,
sorry for them, they stay narrow minded
i pitty them for not growing
for not seeing the truth out there
for not seeing the real person

for missing out on a real heart
for the truth
I pitty them