What else do I wish for.........

Cat on my lap
looking over my shoulder
feeling perfectly happy
seeing the love
on the bed

laying behind
our son
who is watching TV
a family moment
in my book

finally here
in my baby's arms
I can feel her
when I reach out
I can kiss her
when ever I want

Hope turned into
truth
and here and now
were flying
to Florida
to make our
life even more
complete

I am in love
its Christmas
were all in good
health
and I am in my
baby's arms
what else could
I wish for this Christmas

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Sparrow's flight

Watched a little sparrow
acting like it was spring today
it spread it's wings
and flew off

people acting stressed
Christmas is coming!
they shop with open
coats
it's a soft and gentle
winter

the sparrow came back
to the tree in front of my
house
I watched the sparrow
acting like it was spring today
It spread it's wings
and flew off

my face is tingling
it's catching sun
but the cold winter wind
cools it down right away

I looked for the sparrow
acting like it was spring today
but it didn't came back
it spread it's wings
and flew off

© AngelZpublishing 2005

A perfect morning

Love to crawl
back in bed
after getting up
feeding the cats
find the newspaper

make me some breakfast
and a frappucino
and then step back
in that warm cuddly
empty bed

streched out
my hands behind
my head
staring at the ceiling
thinking
dreaming
snuggly
cuddly
missing


sun reaches through
the curtains
and tickles my face
and I smile
lonely but happy

a perfect day
waking my sunshine
being able to enjoy
the start of the day

in 48 hours
my mornings will
be totally perfect
I will wake up
my baby in my arms
and she is my
ray of sunshine
she can make
mornings perfect.

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Twinkle twinkle

I have been asked
to go out
by one of the painters
who are doing
the house

I told him I am gay
and very taken
but I would like
to get a raincheck
and go as friends
when I get back
from the states

that was ok
then today
the windowwasher
did it all
inside outside
upstairs downstairs
while normally

he only does the front
down and upstairs but outside
the windows that is

my baby said its
the twinkle,
the twinkle makes
me flirt without
knowing it myself

but I don't flirt

© AngelZpublishing 2005

The good spirit

So surprised
to get Christmas cards
from people
that you haven't
had contact with
in months or
even years

good spirit
visits people
at this time of year
to find the
goodness in themselves

and somehow they
think they can
show goodness
by sending
a Christmas card

to me it's like flowers
on a grave
bring me flowers
while I am alive
so I can enjoy them
I don't need them
when I am dead

same thing to me
with Christmas cards
send me a card
during the year
or on my birthday
means more
to me then
the one in a dozen
christmas cards

the good spirit
visits people this
time of year
it's sitting on my
shoulder the rest
of the year

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Slash Hammer

My mind is blank
all I can find
is this pounding
headache

making me hear
my blood rush
through my vanes
and be aware

of the pounding
hammer on the
inside of my temples

Feels like my body
is spinning
and can hardly
see this screen
my stomach turns

I wrote some words
anyway
a true writer tries
to put the mind on "paper"
every day

tomorrow a new
hope without the
slashing hammer
inside my head

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Wintertime

Here's another wintertime
the sun has made place
for some shabby grays
chilly winds and moody people
this time of year makes me embrace
the smile upon your face

On top of mountains I will stand
I will ask you, want you, make you
understand
The dreams I have,
they picture you
I feel so lucky I found my love
so true

seasons change, at least I hope they do
It 'll also change, the love I give to you
winters cold, summers hot
I wish that you were near
to guide me through the year

here's another wintertime

© AngelZpublishing 2005

Big city,Bright lights

Finally she got to the airport
went through customs
and stepped outside
onto American soil

she felt the chilly
Minneapolis winter wind
running it's fingers
on her skin

the wind doesn't
bother her
the excitement
her body holds
is keeping her warm

as she sits down
on her suitcase
she is lookin at
cars come and go

No sign of the big
black truck yet
but she isn't worried
she knows it will show

her face lights up
as her eyes catch
the city lights
bright and comforting

ahhhhh Minneapolis at night
she sighs and she knows
she is at home
then from out of darkness
the big black truck shows

© AngelZpublishing 2005

"my world"

(I wrote this song in 1995)

If I feel like a mountain, so big and strong
and I think of all the reasons of all that is going on
and I swear to myself If I should come back to this life
In my world, In my time

If I feel like an ocean, so wide and free
and I think of all the feelings, that are killing me
then I swear to myself, if you want to come back in my life
in my world in my time

and you say; don't you ever leave me lonely
and you say; don't you ever leave me scared
and you say; don't you ever give me reason to stop me
if I want to hold you babe

'cause I will never leave you lonely
I say; I could never leave you scared
will stay, forever by your side,
you could hurt me, hurt me if you tried

When you feel like a mountain so big and strong
Don't feel strange if you're the reason of what is going on
I can swear to myself and search for answers 'till I am through
But some of this blame can be put on you

If I feel like an ocean to wide and free
just remember that it's there to let you be
you must swear to yourself that, if you should come back to this life
it will be in Your world in your time

and you say; don't you ever leave me lonely
you say; don' t you ever leave me scared
you say; don't you ever give me reason to stop me if I want to love you babe
Cause I will never leave you lonely
I say; I could never leave you scared
will stay, forever by your side it can't hurt you, can't hurt you if it tried

© EasyStreet 1995 Buma/Stemra Holland
© AngelZpublishing 2005

Family bond

I took a long walk
with the kids
today
two out of three
kids from my
brother

so full of energy
and fun
polite and
understanding
the unconditional
love

how the six year old,
crawls on my lap
and rest his head
on my chest
the bond

It's amazing
I never had that
with aunts
the kids of my
brother
named me auntie
cool chick

All I feel
is so much love
no one ever could
hurt these kids

I will follow
that someone
till the end of days

something amazing
the family bond

© AngelZpublishing 2005