Too less?

Too much
to do, to say
too far, too little

too great, too much pain
too tired, too worried
too weird?

too much, too less?
is that even English?

too much..........

© AngelZpublishing 2006

Say what?

Want to write down so much
in this patience of all white
but the words run
and jump in my head
not making sense
to any sentence
or understandable poetry


© AngelZpublishing 2006

A people's gift

Amazing
how you can
get up in the morning
sleepy and tired

being like almost
any other
making breakfast
lunch to go
hop on bike or
into car
get into work

days pass
without enjoyment
with just doing
what need to be done
thousands of people
being stuck at work

and still
what amazes me
finding energy
of from each other
like when I arrive
at my boring job
it's the people
that lift me up

the laughter
stories, the easy way
of hanging with each other
and before you know it
the room is lighted

the day flows easier
the energy is buzzing
the exhaustion made place
for energy and good mood

I am thankful
for that group of people
that make my boring work
lighter and fun

© AngelZpublishing 2006

Turning the tables

Turning the tables
twisting stuff around
turning your own life
around
and take a good look

we're on the same track
honey and me
both done with
what's going on

taking a way
stress, boredom
being stuck in same
old bubble
taking life in our own hands

turning it around
don't know if its age,
summer, love or the deadline
of 65 days

both want to turn the tables
without talking to each other
about it
funny how we are
connected by love
and soul


we're turning the tables
taking control
feeling better
more happy
and light

© AngelZpublishing 2006

Director of a new movie

The pictures in my head
when you tell me about
your day, your feelings
your laughter

the pictures make
me feel close
and ohhh so far away
at the same time

we should be together
on those mind pictures
holding hands
kissing tenderly
and staring in eachothers eyes

we exchange pictures
when we talk
making movies in our heads
the love we feel is the same
still the movies are
different

in lighting, settings
edited, colorful
grey and white
comparing movies
our love is the same
color

I miss you
want to make new
pictures in my head
with you

hear your laughter with
my own two ears
see your smile with my
own two eyes
feel your hands on my
skin

it's all another picture........For now

© AngelZpublishing 2006

Edit

Pushed into a deadline
interviewing your butt off
writing emails
editing words counting words

writing my first article
on request
putting all your heart
into this
cuz they wanted me!
little old me

then get bounced
pushed back
every month waiting
to see your own words
published in print

with pictures
you've sent
with words born from your
brain and heart

the sparkle of hope
while days sliding
to the date of release
searching from
page to page

colored pictures
stories and facts
no article
no words born from
my brain
published

disappointed, numb
hard to describe
how it feels
it's like being rejected

feeling like the last
kid of the class
that doesn't get picked
in gymclass

like the last puppy
in the shelter
left without brothers
or sisters cuz
it has a running nose

thank god for
writers block
cuz that's what I am
having when they
giving me a new deadline

they still have an article
on the shelf
an article pushed into
a deadline
the first one I ever wrote
on request...........

© AngelZpublishing 2006

Silent scream

I am standing on a mountain
hell the top of the world if you will
screaming my lungs out
and no one can hear

consumed in there surroundings
blind to see the loneliness of others
the consuming of others
and yourself

there is just one
that can hear you clearly
but too reach out her hand
is way to far to touch

putting on a mask
a face of oh going well
every morning
after looking in the mirror
and not liking what you see

too vulnerable too fragile
too honest if you will
too loving
put on the mask

hide, lock down build that wall
don't let others in
then the ones from
your own little world
if you even have those

the view of freedom
space, greatness and silence
the beauty of nature
and gods breath
running through your hair
me on top of the mountain
screaming my lungs out

and no one can hear.................


© AngelZpublishing 2006

Trouble (Trabbol)

His small warm body
layin on my bed
his pink nose
pushed deep into
the sheets

all rolled up
like a cinnamon role
breathing
in the same rhythm
over and over

his yellow greenish
eyes squeezed together
his ears moving
as radar finding
every little sound

when I move up
to him and say his name
his eyes open
he lift his head
and pushes into my face

and tell me I am welcome
to pet his little warm and
lazy body
even now just looking
at him sleepin off
all the adventures of the day
there escapes a little meow
from his pink lips

my little pirate and
trouble maker cat
so tough during the day
playing and chasing birds
and dogs
so fragile and loving
peacefully sleepin on
my bed

this cat gives me so much
as less as I trust humans
as much I trust him

© AngelZpublishing 2006

A new world

Summer is here!
windows are open
laptop on my lap
sitting comfy
sun on my face,
melissa's new song
playing on my computer

my face red and holding
the sun in my skin
one of my cats enjoying the warmth
looking at me with a lazy eye

a thin warm summer breeze
pushing around leaves on young
green trees
A happy feeling inside is
coming over me
restless and burning

ready to......ready for anything
traveling, touring, kissing,
hugging, loving, playing
teasing...........
It's alot to hold back on
my baby and I aren't
together just yet

But this year my summer
will be a long summer
and I will get the time
to let this summerburst out
a little later then I used to
but it will burst

the feeling of soft warm tanned
skin on soft worn out jeans
thin soft blouses and bare feets,
sand between toes and the nice
smells of tanning lotion and bbq
on the end of an hot and sizzling
summer afternoon

to me every summer is like
a new beginning
a new world, people are friendly
and loving, easy going and happy
It's like leavin one world behind
and stepping onto the next

I love this new world,
can the next world please
bring my baby with??

© AngelZpublishing 2006

The Storm

My feet are desperate searching for
Some solid rock to hold my body weight
And stops me from loosing control
The solid rock I was leaning on
Turned into sand, like some greater power
Was waiting to make me fall and tumble

Feel like I am standing on an edge
My cool expensive cowboy boots
Don’t let me grab solid ground
And I am slipping
In a reflex I do the only thing
I know to do, is hold on and grab
Anything I can, to stop me from
falling.

My hands desperate grabbing
For some soil, to keep me grounded
But the more I grab the more I find
Loose sand, to keep me from falling
The more I struggle the deeper I fall
I am making it worse but I can’t
Find the sense to think

I hit insanity realizing that
The only thing that can stop me
From falling, are your loving hands
Adrenaline is making my heart race
My head pound and my eyes spit water
Like it needs to fill a river

While my eyes are rolling in my head
From the insanity that comes over me
My feet find a rock to lean on again,
The sand is still loose but the rock is solid
And holding me up,
I can breath again, but afraid to fall again
And fall deeper and hit rock bottom

As I catch my breath, rub my watered eyes
I look at the sky, and see the clouds
Slowly drifting by predicting more
Stormy weather heading my way
Uncontrollable I have to face the storm
I need your loving hands to lead me
Through the storm, the storm we love
The storm called love…….

Let’s face the storm together………

© AngelZpublishing 2006

What's the future holding?

I asked my honey
to go to the doctor for
some check ups for a
while now

my baby, not crazy
about doctors
tried to stall it as long
as she could
then finally she broke
under my pressure
and her common sense
and finally went

today we got the results
and I got my heart cracked
the fear, and questions
raised as fast as my
heart was pumping
nothing really wrong yet
but not totally right either
they found something
that shouldn't be there......

my baby not happy
cuz now she needs to
get back to the damn
doctors that she didn't liked
from the beginning
and me worried
cuz were so far apart
and I can't do anything.

I can just pray the
future is holding
better things for us
then what we're looking
at now..........

© AngelZpublishing 2006