94 days to go..............

again it's been a while,
it's getting old to start with that
I know
people are reading me more lately
not that I am a loner
but I feel more lonely, lately
and I guess it's starting to show

wake up in the middle of the night
more often cause I don't feel safe
turning and tossing in my sleep
to find a solution to be together
and feel safe and secure again

the wanting, and needing is so deep
I can hardly hide it
I guess it shows.................
94 days to go............

Shallow people

It keeps surprising me
how people think they know
people without really knowing
who they are
and what their background is
and how they became
who they are today.

I am thinking about myself
why I am a loner,
why I don't let people in
any more,
Why I am vulnerable.

And why I am loving
and have so much love to give.
why I don't care about
what people look like, or what color
their skin is, or what background they
come from

I have been raised with all those
differences
seven different nationalities in our family
but no love,
No understanding, no hugs and kisses
always smiling faces,
hidden behind masks
never showing the real you
cause you will get hurt


A bigger house, a better job,
less weight, longer hair, brighter eyes,
suntanned skin, whither teeth,
Nice's clothes, bigger car,
diamond ring..........never good enough

it learned me, I try never to judge
and never show my own pain,
hide the damage
show the shell
shallow people

A Guardian Angel.

An escape from death
I call it
My honey had a fire
going on in the garage
when everyone was sleeping

An Angel must have been watching
over them and kept them save
It was a close call
full tanks of gas
and a lot of stuff easy to catch on fire close

the garage is all black
and a lot of stuff damaged or melted
the back of the car
melted away but the fire didn't hit the gas tank
the whole house would have been
blown away

everyone is save
thank god, thank you Angel!!
for keeping my family save
and put out the fire while everyone was sleeping!