Open hand...brand new

There she is....crashed right in!
Long time that i felt this way.
New eyes....lovely gorgeous eyes.
Heart bounches, mind is warning..
Hands are willing,smiles are feeding.
Like a rushing river....fresh, new and still so familiar....like it's always been.
Still brand new, exciting and new...burning to a newer level

GXC@2014

Sad

I am sad today
Two days before my birthday
No one special to celebrate it with
I never felt more alone than right now
Sadness fills my heart
My heart that has so much love to give
Seems no one wants it
No place to return it
Trade it for another one
Complete it
Repare or share it
I guess i am stuck with it
My sad and unloveable empty lonely heart....

What?

Sometimes
Sometimes it all makes sense
Often it doesn't
Matters of the heart
So simple, so complicated at the same time
Clear one day, confusing the next
What is it
Why is listening to your heart so deafning
Why does your head overrules that voice
What does it say to some
That make them not listen
To the voice of their heart.....
What?

let the sunshine in.........

Wow, it's been a while, lots of changes
life...goes on...with or without......it's been crazy...
heartbreaks, loves, sorrow, sadness, happiness daily life i guess
what a ride....now I'm trying to get my feet back on solid ground
it's harder than I thought.........but it's worth fighting and working for.

I'm trying to find the love inside me.....not in others any more
that has changed, I am meditating my self to sleep at night
to not feel the pain and loneliness anymore,
the loneliness had a tight grip on my heart....it's slowly
loosening up....to sometimes squeeze a little tighter.

I hope spring, warmth and sunshine will help me warm my heart again
to love and laugh and enjoy again...
im trying hard to escape the darkness that I feel now...

let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in....a tantrum in my head
let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in.....you're stronger than this
keep your head up! keep your head up!
it's so hard when you feel life is crumbling down on top of you
love, life, work....

breath......again I need the mountains....where are you when I need you most?
I know where to find you, if only I could get to you........

I travel in my head, stand there, on top in the Rockies.....
total happiness
and my heart opens...........and enlightens.

let the sunshine in...................