I feel sorry.............for them...........

where to start, changes in life
im still waiting
loneliness is trying to get to me
opening my heart for the good ones
trying to trust, get stabbed
promises never held
broken, bruised, lied to and used....

heartbreak, tears and questions
words never spoken
hanging in my head and in my heart
silent, killing, wondering and wandering
worked hard to become the change,

for some you never do....
they hold on to the past
and keep their mind in the wrong place
pulling others with, but they don't know
the truth, the feelings, the love, the struggle,
sorry for them, they stay narrow minded
i pitty them for not growing
for not seeing the truth out there
for not seeing the real person

for missing out on a real heart
for the truth
I pitty them

it's fall....

It's fall,
not just outside,
it feels like fall in my heart,
heavy tears keep falling
just when your life can't be any better
the univers hits you with something
something hard, and brings you back
back to reality back to being humble


Fall............tears..........
feel unwelcome, unwanted, lonely, stabbed,
left alone and lost

Overrated

You know how sometimes,
stuff can feel so overrated?
like work? we work to live don't
live to work.........
health.......so NOT overrated
Love.........so NOT overrated
but sometimes made so not important by others

like a boss who wants to know what you are
doing at the doctors office....does it matter to you?
it's none of your bussiness but still..........
I don't know, i had some struggles the last
two weeks with health problems
nothing majore but really inconveniënt and painful

even got in a fight at work to defend my own health
really? how can anyone even judge how you are feeling
and why you decide to go home or not go home?
is it really up to any one else than yourself?

I'm one of the "little people" meaning i work for a boss
that breaths down my neck at times
I don't care, not anymore anyway.
I am good at what I do, and she needs me
so i couldn't care less if she yells at me
I yell back without fear

that is appreciated and excuses are made
many times this week
 it happens, we're all human
with emotions, health and love
with issues and little aches and pains

it is what it is...
don't overrate care, love, health or happiness!!

be good, be love