Love was it ever meant to be easy?

Love was never meant to be easy............

but how do you u handle a complete struggle?

Not willing to give it up, that just isn't me.

But how do you know when you're are fighting on your own?

what are the signs?

and why am I blinded for them?

my instincts are never wrong.........why are they now?

why do I turn into goo?

Me?

the strong?

loving caring, you looking at me huh huh huh? tough loving chick? why?

am I being a leo? and wanting what I can never have?

running after someone so hard, that the someone can't do anything else than run away?

I need my oceans and mountains again! fresh cool air to clear my head, get this fog out.

meanwhile struggling, trying to understand..............me, myself and love.......

love was never meant to be easy................

??

did you ever heard your own heart breaking?

have to................

It's calling me, from the inside

A need, a want, a craving, a must

my eyes bright and wide open

my mind cloudy and foggy

the wanting, needing

and loving, lungs in pain for the fresh air

heart beating fast, blood running just by thoughts....

sun warming my face, containing me to this place

my instincts running wild needing to get out,

wind blowing and cleaning my mind....

I have to,

have to have to have to have to.................

Sleep

After your laughter like thunder

after your skin like coffee and cream

after it takes our bodied into the night

after we've come to the extreme

I want to lay down on your shoulder

just inside your arm

I want to listen to your heart beat

your breathing on and on

I want to lay down on your shoulder

surrender to your peace

and go to sleep

After we've gone a million miles

made true our dreams with sweat and bone

after we've built it up with our bare hands

made strong a place we can call home

and when the light in my eye is fading

when running water becomes too deep

finally angels turn my fire to dust

and when my soul's no longer mine to keep

I want to lay down on your shoulder

just inside your arm

I want to listen to your heart beat

and your breathing on and on

I want to lay down on your shoulder

surrender to your peace

and just go to sleep...........

-Melissa Etheridge- Sleep- breakdown.