Girls who make me happy...

Awwww, warmth, love, warm wind, seaguls, icecream, bike rides, shorts, flipflops, laughter, music, sand sand sand....summer is right around the corner.
I'm so happy she came along with spring and they left their brothers fall and winter at home!
I knew there was a reason why i prefer girls!
Summer she makes my eyes twinkle, sun she makes my skin warm and soft and spring makes me long for them both!!!
:-)  Be love, Be good!

:-)

Well....this is it....

it's spring :-)

Happy happy happy spring

and like nature got the go

flowers popping up everywhere!

Sun is shining, skies are blue, it feels good!

Feel like I'm shaking off a blanket

that kept me down way too long.

body is changing, mind is also

my smile is back! and I love smiling!

keeping some doors open for friends to pop back in

they can close it behind them if not. my heart has healed

and the sun is telling me it's all going to be good!

Life is good, going to be better and I am going to fukin enjoy it!

No one is going to hold me down, back or ruin it for me.

If your friends don't throw you a party, make one yourself

life is too freaking short not to enjoy!

Welcome spring, I am happy your back I missed you bunches!

Singing my song

I sang so many songs

how sad I would be

living life without you

I walked around in fear

looking for the pain

so I could sing the blues

I pretended to be bad ass

but now when it really doesn't go well with me

I can handle it better than i thought

I dreamt of nights

wandering the streets

searching my lost soul

and now my friend,

u left me standing alone

I don't know what I did wrong

Now I really miss you

the way I always said I would

I can't write it any more intense

Or sing it with more soul

I miss you

A joke is only funny

when you don't see it coming

misery you can handle better

when you laugh about it

sorrow makes you stronger

and is bareable if you caused it yourself

the blues isnt as bad

if you have someone to share it with

Now I really miss you

the way I always said I would

I can't write it more intense

Or sing it with more soul

I miss you

2myStalker

dear stalker,

I don't like you,

I don't appreciate you,

I don't know you,

I don't like your calls

I don't like your msgs

I don't like your style

I don't want to know you

I don't like you

so dear stalker knock it off

or i'll kick your ass!!! (thanks cindy chick)

friendship is an illusion

Lost a friend, although she claimed to be a friend for a while.
I wanted her to be a friend, I cared for her dearly
supported her through a part of her journey of dedication.
Tried to be there as much as I could, patient and understanding
sometimes hard, confused and demanding.
I don't take shit from anyone, especially not from someone
who doesn't prove to be worth my endless friendship.

But for some reason I did from her.
It stings and is painful cuz I opened my heart for her

and I don't do that quickly or easily.

But she put me down, put her foot on my heart and crushed it

with convincion and dedication, crushed it cracked it and stepped on it again,

and left me there.

I got an empty spot in my heart for her, but it will heal in time.

this friendship was an illiusion,

My friend, you be good, I wish you

all the best and all that life can offer you.

Be good, Be love......(if you'll ever know how)

15 locks

how can it be?

that some of us can't give up on love,

and some throw it away like it never excisted.

is that the difference between true love,

and a crush? or a fling?

I just don't understand

I don't love easy or quickly

I have 15 locks on the door of my heart

it takes alot to unlock all of them and it's an heavy door

it takes alot to even open it.

IF you get it done, it means you are with me for life.

I do warn people for that!

I don't give up or strike out easy...call it hard headed...

I just know love and care, friendship and dedication.
I know what it means to get hurt, feel lost, be left and be loved

to strike out, fight and struggle. love with everything you got and still get hurt.

I know dedication, i know true love,

I know faith, know and practice it every day with my complete being.
I don't take it lightly when i get a promise, I don't promise quickly and when I do,

I mean it, and stick to it untill it gets dissmissed...

My friend.....

I feel an empty spot in my heart,

u, used to b there, sit there and just be.

Or made me laugh so hard that I could almost explode.

Or made me cry so hard I thought i would never overcome.

Or make me listen to your stories and adventures that I held my

breath so long, I almost bursted.

Or give me an ear full that made me think about my life

really hard.

It's still reserved for you, but I don't think

u will ever show to fill it up again.

I miss you my friend, I miss you...