Christmas in America

Christmas in America
I can hold you in my arms
not so far away from home
someone brought me back home.............

after a long wait
and a lot of tension, tears and fears
I threw my suitcases on the plane
and left cold and wet Holland
to come home to my warm
and peace full nest in the states

People waiting for me
with open arms, smiles and laughter
with hopes and dreams and love
oh my god so much love
with presents and wises
hugs and tender loving

as soon as I walked out
of the terminal at the airport
love came my way
I feel so loved here
I feel so good, so home
so appreciated and so welcome

I wished for snow
even that worked out
we left the airport
and it started to snow
hard and heavy
it was like the entire state
was welcoming me home

Christmas in America
I need you in my arms
finally home............
finally home.....

Closing Closets....

Coming out again
not to blame anyone
and I love my Honey
more than any thing
but some things in the
States are a little more
difficult.
As is coming out.

I did it,
here close to Amsterdam
or Gay Paradise
and still it wasn't easy
but that is a long story
and not a happy one

so, by circumstances
for some reason
that I won't bore you with
just family issues
I will have to get back
in the closet
for a week
to protect my family

And I am a nervous wreck
about it, (just got of the phone,
with my mother in law and now it's
a lot better) She told me not to
worry, to just be carefull
and just be me.

I told her I can do that.
But hey, I am a Dutchie
and gay, and 150% out
so it will probably cause
me some trouble!
she said she will save me
if I do!(big smile)

Earlier my Honey
tried to comfort me
and told me it will all be OK
but ya know,
were apart from each other
months, and then the few
weeks we are together
all I want, is be me.

Gay, and in love.
she was very happy
with that and OK with
me being gay............(grin)
she better be........

So 'll be back in
in the closet so to speak
for a week, being
carefully gay,
that will be a whole other
experience............

I am coming out again.