Maybe for the best...

I've got it all I've started it all....
a travel blog,
hyves, my space, face book got it all, you can find me.....
but only thing is.I'm not sure if i want to be found yet.
It's funny how comfortable you get the longer you're online.
I started in a chat room of my favorite rock star, Melissa Etheridge.
That was fun for a while,
it destroyed relationships and build new ones,
after that I figured it was time to get the hell out.
(to make sure it wouldn't destroy the amazing relationship i have now)
Many people have sick minds and destroyed the website and the fun for all the good eggs.
the chat room is taken down.

Right at the time I met my wife I started it off with this blog,
anonymous, putting my thoughts into words for my wife being
overseas so she can read my moods every day.
staying comfortable and unknown, more and more invitations kept repeating
themselves in my inbox.

apparently people want to see my face and read profiles and be my friend.
so i caved, and gave in. it's funny how when you finally make a profile you do can't seem to find those friends any more....

I have more friends online than I have in "real"life, today i went through alot of old stuff
trying to put together what I'm taking to the states and what I leave here or throw away.
found alot of stuff of people who disappeared from my life... some you find back online, some has disappeared forever....maybe that's for the best....

Smell the daisy's

My life sucks,
my work sucks well in all actuality my boss sucks,
the distance between my wife and me about 5000 miles, sucks,
the weather sucks, snow, snow and more snow!
And my bank account sucks,
so conclusion my life sucks!
And the only one who can change it is me!
that sucks even more!

Not that i don't trust my own skills and posibilities
but I miss the... how do you say... tools?
I mean, there is much that I can get done,
but sometimes you would think, something can come easy...
just a little bit of help would be so much appreciated.
Every day I tell myself,
smell the daisy's,
life is good,
life is grant,
life is love and love is peace!
But there are so many people
trying to destroy that truth for me
it's sometimes so hard to live my life with that truth.
It's like everyone is trying to prove different!

So here's another sunday night, crying on webcam,
cuz I miss my Angel so much,
picking myself up, picking my angel up, picking my son up,
trying to be that ray of sunshine again, to keep good spirit
and smell the daisy's.....