Silence

The older you get, the more quiet, 

No need to speak out.

No need to worry or scream about stuff that doesn't matter.

Peace in heart and mind sometimes makes me shiver of lonely happiness. 

The silence makes me peaceful, think adjust and embrace. 

You see young people being loud about things that are tiny and insignificant in my eyes, to them it's a riot, a must, a priority to respond. 

I let them and smile in silence.

Getting older does make you milder, more quiet, wiser, and more peaceful.

Getting older makes the silence safe and trustworthy. 

Silence....

Joe, my dear Boy

Joe, My dear boy,

12 weeks since you left, since you crossed the huge bridge, and met all kinds of friends on the other side. 

3 months, out playing with toys and balls and are running free without pain. 

I don't blame you for leaving, I don't blame 

you for playing and running pain free.

I don't blame you for not contacting me. I do miss you tho.

The last weeks even more than before.

My soul connection to you is even stronger.

I am happy you are happy, but boy how I miss you at my side.

At my feet at the dining table.

Your soft ears in my hands and your faitfull eyes when I feel down and out.

And boy how you broke my heart when I felt your heartbeat fading and your breathing slow down.

Not on purpose and definitely not cause you wanted to.

You just were my heart, my life my best friend my everything.

My whole being was about you.

And you left a void, and you are missed. Your frenz down here miss you too. Some still come look for you.

But I am happy you are happy and playing.

I haven't received your package yet, "the other one for loving" but I am sure it will come soon. 

If I could choose, I would rather have you come home.

I do understand that's not a choice, sometimes it is the way it is. 

But some day when the time is right, I will come to you and stay by your side 

and we can have long walks again. 

Till then I will miss you, but always love you. And only see you in my dreams.

And enjoy you little messages.

Be a good boy my sweet Joe.

Go and play,

Love, Mom.

Xmas dream

Woke up this morning with a smile on my face.

While not being up for a different love, or meeting people,

I had this nice dream,

Meeting a woman that swept me,

Long dark brown hair, greenish bright eyes, tall and a generous smile.

In my dream all of a sudden she stood before me, looked me straight in my eyes, smiled and swept me.

She turned, walked away, stopped, considered, turned back around, pushed herself into me and kissed me, long but gentle.

Smiled, and said, let's start our life together and be happy!

Uhmm ok!!!

I woke up with a smile.

Long time ago that I woke up happy. 

Merry Xmas! 

Holidays are tough

How easily you have been forgotten when people get consumed by their own families.

How easily.

Holidays are tough, all by yourself not a soul to talk to.

How much I miss my brown eyed buddy, staring at me for his egg in the kitchen.

Not to worry how to fill all those days, 'cause he was there. 

He is gone, and so is all the goodwill, from neighbors and so called friends when the holidays are around.

It doesn't really matter if it's Christmas, Easter, Kingsday or liberation day. 

When people get consumed by their own, they forget about the lonely.

They don't think about the ones that don't talk to a soul any of those days. 

The holidays are the toughest, they're about sharing and caring, but it's the most forgotten for those who are alone. 

No invite, no friendly word, no handshake. Just silence.

The holidays are the toughest

You're a liar

The more I think about it

The more I know

You're a liar

We were supposed to stay friends

But friends don't walk away like 10 years was nothing

Friends don't make promises that they don't keep

You deceived me

Small talk, lies

Friendly and kind to cover your ass

Be sure of your financial security

Over my back

You mistreated me

I believed you like a child

In good faith

In love and trust

You're a liar

You left me heartbroken

And made me loose everything I cared for

You left me in a spot without friends, without job, without pets without love and without trust

You're poison

You're a liar